Why Am I Here? Pt. II

I guess you could say I’ve gotten scatter-brained with my posts.. I kind of lost track of what the purpose of this blog even is. I feel like my posts go from here to there and have not so much connection to each other.. & guys, tbh…this is a literal representation of my current life situation. 

In the past few weeks my workouts were bleh, I was putting minimal effort into what I was eating, & just really struggling to get into the groove of my new routine. I was feeling like I didn’t even want to lift anymore (scared myself a little with that one), I didn’t care if I never ate healthy again. Obviously that didn’t last long because eating like crap means you feel like crap. I realised I needed to check in with myself mentally & physically….I looked at my goals & basically made the move to add more variety to everything & plan better. Personally, planning is crucial because not having set daily activities gives me ~anxieTy~. That’s not to say I didn’t need that time of scattered-ness – I have no regrets at all. {yoloswag}

BUTT this is me just checking in to reassure you all that I’ve refocused & am back on a purposeful path. I know what my goal is: to make fitness & healthy eating accessible to anyone reading this (with the ocassional random post because I just can’t help myself). I know how I want to accomplish it, & I’m okay if I only help one person work toward a healthier, happier life!

Now that I’m thinking about it.. Things like this actually are in line with the reason I started this blog.. It’s definitive proof that I am a normal human being who gets lost & confused at times. It brings me back to my original questions: who am I & why am I here? I think I’m closer to the answer now… 

Even with a goal in mind I can get off-track. But that’s life. Nobody is perfect! So, if you’re with me now or were with me when I had no clue what the heck I was doing writing this blog- welcome!! & congratulations on also being human! 🙂

Soul Food: Hike to Heal

Hiking is a loaded form of exercise. It’s obviously great cardio, but I think there’s so much more to gain from a good hike. I might be reaching here- but bear with me!

 ~Bull’s Hill in Cold Spring, NY~

Hiking is one of my favorite things to do (although I don’t necessarily do it that often). I really enjoy the peacefulness of the nature around me, even though I usually can’t breath for most of the time I spend on a mountain… Within about 15 steps I’m probably sweating & losing my breath….but that’s beside the point!

I’ve had a lot of realizations while on hikes. Usually keeping them to myself, sometimes sharing them with whoever I’m with at the time. The main one that I think should be shared is that hiking parallels life. It takes a lot of the same things to be successful in both.

Be in the Present

The path up a mountain is not typically well-cleared. There are rocks & bumps & tree branches & other treacherous qualities about trails. It requires you to stay focused solely on the path that’s right in front of you.

If you look ahead to try & figure out what’s coming up, it’s almost guaranteed that something will trip you. Trust me, I know this from experience…& not just once…

Looking back means you stop moving forward. Of course it’s always cool to look back down the trail you’ve travelled once you get to a high point. You keep trudging for who knows how long, & all of a sudden when you turn back the place you started seems so small & far away. But if you look back too often you’ll slow down your trip & it’ll take you forever to get to the top!

  a view along the way up Bulls Hill

How is this like life? Wellllllllllllllll. If you focus too much on the future, you won’t have time to enjoy what’s going on right now in your life. Challenges you need to face in the present will pass you by & your progress will take a hit. You’ll be too concerned with what may/may not happen to truly observe & appreciate where you are now.

And if you only focus on the past….we all know that’s a bad idea. I’m sure everyone can relate to the thoughts of ‘ugh my life was so good when I had _____’ or ‘wow I was so happy when I dated _____, why can’t i go back to that? *sadface*’. Yeaa…..stop that. If you never turn to move forward you won’t get anywhere. However, looking back is great when you’ve made accomplishments/met goals because it lets you see how far you’ve come.

Determination

This one is pretty self-explanatory. Hiking is not easy…it’s tiring, can be boring in some stretches, it makes you hungry & sweaty.. But once you get to the top it’s so worth it. Imagine if you stopped right before the best viewpoint because you decided it wasn’t worth it to keep going. That would really suck because you were so close, but let the difficulty turn you away from your end goal.

In life, we have to be determined to reach our viewpoints. Whatever goals you set for yourself, you have to remind yourself of them to keep yourself motivated. It’s so important to give your determination fuel during your journey. I like the idea of vision boards- they’re a simple reminder of what’s important to you in life. Even just simply taking the time to actually think about what you want to accomplish can be super motivating. Whatever you do, keep your eye on the prize 🙂

  a little yoga at the *almost* top of Lamb’s Hill in Fishkill, NY

So, maybe this will make you want to go for a hike…I’m hoping for one soon too.

Maybe you’re going to take more time to enjoy your journey.

Maybe this will give you the extra push you need to keep working for what you want.

Maybe this just made you laugh..

I don’t know! But I hope you enjoyed the read & hopefully got something out of it!

~peace & all good~

SELF ESTEEM SALE

This Sunday isn’t the usual skin care post. It has to do with taking care, but it’s a little deeper than skin.

I’m writing this while on a break during my roller blading.. sitting on a rock, getting bit by Mosquitos, & sweating. A very pretty picture if I do say so myself (lol NOT). I decided to stop because a few thoughts popped into my head that I didn’t want to lose. As hippie-cliche as it sounds~ My mind is at its clearest when it’s in the middle of nature.


While we’re here, I have a random PSA: if you see someone coming toward you on roller blades, don’t stare at them…get out of their way.. Like I am on wheels, people. I can’t control where I go as well as you can on two feet. Also, I’m serious when I say I don’t know how to stop on these things. Please please please do us all a favor & respond when I am flying toward you & say “excuse me!!”

ANYWAYS…

I was talking to someone about a person who has low self-esteem & did something they thought would help them fit in. The person said, in regards to the low self-esteem, “well they should get some”.  My response was sarcastic as usual, something like “Ohhhhhh yea, I think Forever 21 is actually having a sale on self esteem! They just released they Fall 2015 Confidence line!!! If you go today you can get two for the price of one!!1!1!11″

OK. Two things:

  1. self esteem/confidence/faith in yourself is not something one simply goes out & acquires. You don’t go to sleep hating yourself & wake up the next day loving who you are…
  2. it takes a lot of work to build it. You have to commit to nurturing yourself in order to maintain it

I think it’s easy for people who have a high amount of confidence to overlook the challenges someone else faces when trying to be happy about who they are. Noone is perfect- but some people have a natural tendency to overlook the negative parts. Lucky them!!

We always see standards set for us by people we don’t even know, or someone who’s ‘better’ than us, or what we wish we could be. Well….fuck that! (sorry for the language) But really. No one deserves to feel badly about who they are!

The people you envy on social media because they always post flawless selfies?

  • how long do you think it took them to get that perfect picture? Probably way longer than you would ever want to spend taking pictures of your own face..
  • how many edits/filters did they apply? (to be determined, probably a lot)
  • maybe they’re just naturally photogenic. Applaud them for that & celebrate the wonderful human beings both of you are!

With all things that make us feel less than great about ourselves, we only see the end product (or picture) but never the steps someone took to get there. Everyone has struggles, some are just more apparent than others.

I have a challenge for you. You can call it my ‘sale’ of self-esteem.

Every day write down three (3) things about yourself or your life that make you happy.* Do it right now, when you first wake up, before you go to bed, or right after your first poop of the day. Whenever you want- just do it! It can be things you have control over, or things you don’t…totally up to you.

Here are my 3 pieces of happiness for the day:

  1. the sun was shining
  2. I got to spend time alone with my roller blades & my thoughts
  3. I bought a new tea that is delicious (The Republic of Tea, Be Active Teas: Get Burning Hot Cinnamon Ginger)

If you start doing this consistently, I’m sure your good days will start to outweigh the bad days. You may even start to think in a positive way & smile more & just be overall happier!!

Give it a try!

~peace & all good~

*I’ve learned this little trick so many times, but was reminded of it today at a work meeting. gotta give credit where credit’s due!

Be Here Now

Consciousness, energy, love, awareness, light, wisdom, beauty, truth, purity. It’s all the same- any trip you want to take leads to the same place.

– Baba Ram Dass

What does this mean? I’m not entirely sure at the moment, still trying to figure it out.

But I think it gives a different perspective to decision-making. You will end up where you’re supposed to be eventually. You just have to be aware of your purpose & where you want to go