Thoughts From An Overly Aware Mind

What is the point?

Does anyone else ever ask themselves that question? Like really… What is the point of anything? Or, dare I ask, what is the point of everything

I literally question the purpose of everything in the world around me. It gets annoying & discouraging. It makes me frustrated with the world. It makes the idea of things ever improving seem hopeless. (I work in the criminal justice system, so I find myself questioning the point of my work ALL the time). It makes me tired sometimes because of the extent of my thought process..

It also gives me satisfaction. It gives me something to work for- if I’m able to identify things I think are wrong I have passion to fuel me. It keeps my mind active (without school that can be relatively difficult believe it or not); with my brain I’ll never become an idle member of the world. My thoughts won’t let me! 

There are times when I would like to turn off my brain, to get some peace, to just have quiet & blindly accept things. But I can’t. That’s not who I am, not how I’m wired at all. & I have recently come to accept that..now the noise in my head doesn’t drive me crazy. I can sit with my thoughts & find peace in the chaos. I’m okay with the fact that I think too much about everything I experience/see/hear. I’m glad I over analyze situations & society & the world I find myself in. It helps me have an awareness most people find annoying…but really I wouldn’t have it any other way. Some may say that I am ~woke~ 

Yes, I feel like an outsider in most situations. It’s hard to find other humans who can truly relate to me/my mind. I feel crazy sometimes. 

BUTT. I will always have a plethora of thoughts to occupy my brain.

So long story short, I am a textbook intellectual introvert…… If that wasn’t screaming at you yet… But I’ll have a more organized post on that in the days to come. 

If you analyze everything around you & within you to the point of mental exhaustion- you’re not alone! It’s something we should embrace rather than suppress. Be at peace with your awareness. Let yourself find a sense of calm from your thoughts. Empower yourself!!

Be well, & remember: everything happens for a reason. 

~peace & all good~

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Bulletproof Coffee

Here’s how you can do for your coffee what it does for you; make it bulletproof. 

I feel that coffee is best when you brew yourself a cup so you can enjoy the taste, rather than drinking it because you need it. But let’s be honest….some mornings/days getting out of bed feels like entering hell & coffee is the only thing that can bring you back. You need it to be bulletproof!

Making bulletproof coffee is super easy & actually adds to the health benefits inside your mug! 

Brew your coffee as usual. Pour it into your favorite mug….or whatever mug happens to be clean.. 

  

Stir in a tablespoon or so of butter (organic/grass-fed butter has the most health benefits). You can also add coconut oil for a supercharged drink.

Better yet: blend the mixture!! The butter emulsified & creates a heavenly coffee energy drink..

  

Top it off with milk/vanilla/cinammon, whatever your usual coffee routine is. I drink my coffee black, but this is a superb alternative to cream. The coffee tastes less bitter but it’s flavor is unchanged, there are way less chemicals/added crap in butter, & it will give you extra energy rather than leading you to a crash. It’s a creamy cup of coffee goodness. How can you go wrong?! 

   heaven in a mug
Ta-da! Now your coffee will not only help you stay alert, it will also help you burn fat throughout the day 😀 By providing your body with the healthy fats it needs, you’ll kickstart the fat burning potential of your body. The fat in the butter also helps you carry the caffeine longer. More energy, less crash! 

It’s important to fuel your day in a way that benefits you- & this is a great place to start! 

I’m sure there are tons of other variations of bulletproof coffee out in the universe. Let me know how you make yours, I’d love to try something new!!

~peace & all good~

Detoxifyin Myself

I’ve felt a little under the weather lately. Not in an ‘I have an illness’ way…more in an ‘whoa I don’t feel my best mentally or physically’ way.. 

The beginning of this week was when I felt the worst & decided to make an effort to fix this crappy feeling. I was sitting at my desk & felt completely wired yet exhausted at the same time. My eating over the past days had been shit, I wasn’t getting any satisfaction from my workouts, I was tired as hell… Being attentive to my body helped me realise something wasn’t right. I took a break from lifting (sad face) & focused more on tending to my body’s immediate needs (happy face). 

   Taking time to put things on pause & just breathe has been much needed.. My sister says this pic looks like I’m giving my soul away LOL nah fam, I got full control of that 😉

Ive also been trying to cut out processed foods & coffee from my daily routine. (yes, ik it sounds terrible but sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do..)

Now that it’s Friday & I’m a few days into this restart, I feel really good! The things that are working well I’m going to continue (duh) & see how much more detoxed I can get. To me, making a change like this isn’t about anything complicated- it’s about paying attention, noticing…how do I feel after eating certain things? How do my days go when I do certain things?

More fruit & vegetables: pretty self explanatory.. I’m back on my salad flow. Getting creative with the foods I bring to work & planning for how hungry I’ll ACTUALLY be rather than pretending a smaller amount of food will suffice. 

  Breakfast: instant oatmeal with peanut butter & a ground cocoa/flax mix

  Lunch: greens with beans, feta cheese, & seasoning
Coffee replacement: a large glass of ice water. I’ve been drinking it before even peeing for the first time in the morning & it’s actually made me feel really awake. More importantly, I didn’t tell myself I couldn’t have coffee…I just didn’t let myself think I need it..

Tea: What more is there to say?! Tea is the bomb! The variety of types, the soothing powers it has, the wonderful ness. Yea…basically. Also- tea is a good way to help ease your minds worries about a lack of caffeine. You’re not taking it away, you’re just having it in a less intense amount.. 

Vitamins: I decided to bite the bullet (or pills..) & go for a daily, guaranteed source of vitamins my body clearly is in desperate need of. I haven’t been able to give my body everything it needs- yet I’ve been taking so much out of myself by working out/working/being alive.. I’ve always been sort of skeptical about vitamins, but this change is way overdue. I’ve been taking the Shaklee Women’s Vitalizer pack of vitamins everyday & tbh I feel great. WHICH I JUST REMEMBERED THAT I FORGOT TO TAKE TODAY ….

Not sure if it’s a combination of everything I’ve been doing to refresh myself this week, but whatever it’s from I’m feelin it. If you’re feeling ‘bleh’, try some of these changes! It seems difficult but it really hasn’t been that hard.. I didn’t think about this as staying away from bad things, I’ve been thinking about it as doing more of what’s good. Positive change rather than negative change. 

Start feelin good yall! Don’t deprive yourself of anything, just replace what you don’t need with more of what you do need 🙂 Live in abundance…maybe not in the ways you’d like (financially, materially, etc..) but in the ways you can directly control (happiness, energy, etc). 

~peace & all good~

Overheard at Work

Oh wow your hair looks so bad! That’s not like you…it’s usually so nice & styled! 

…. Well, I expect you’ll look better next time. 

– woman, to her ‘friend’

Ummmmmmm………. THE WOMANS HAIR LOOKED GREAT SO IDK WHAT HER FRIEND WAS TALKING ABOUT!!1!1!!

People can be so mean. This wasn’t even a big deal but it made me stop & think (pretty much anything can do that). Why do we criticize eachother so much? What did that woman gain from telling her own friend that her hair looks terrible?? I mean really…how fantastic did she expect her friend’s hair to look on her way out of the gym?! I don’t know..but it’s an interesting thing to ponder. 

Next time you hear people (or even yourself) talking, try to pay attention to what they’re saying. We’d probably be surprised at how often people rattle off comments like the one I overheard. & they probably do it without thinking about their words. On the other hand, there’s most likely a large amount of people who also say nice things without conciously doing so. Everything is multi-faceted, humans included. 

It’s also interesting to consider the standards we hold eachother to. This woman executed her friend to always look her best- even when she’s at the gym….a place typically not associated with people’s best appearances.. 

Does this stem from the standards we feel we can’t meet ourselves? Or is it because we hold our friends to high standards? Is it something totally different? Do we say mean things because we’re food-deprived? Do we need a drink to shut the mean voices up? Am I asking pointless/irrelavant questions? Is this whole post just a product of my overthinking? (yes, it is)

ANYWAYS….

We should all strive to be aware of what we’re saying. Always make an effort to infuse some kindness/positivity into your words! 

~peace & all good~

Hi, how are ya?!

Normal.. It doesn’t mean becoming a creepy yellow sponge with no personality who just asks “Hi, how are YA!”. There’s much more to it. 
This is especially true in relationships- romantic, professional, friends, family, whoever & whatever. 

So, here are a few things that are definitely not normal: 

  • when a person makes you feel stupid
  • someone who orders you around on a consistent basis
  • a person who claims to be fond of you but won’t let you do things you enjoy
  • being told that your opinion is irrelevant/invalid (it’s never considered in decision-making)
  • being talked to as if you’re a child when, in fact, you can legally drink alcohol & vote for the president 
  • someone makes you feel worse about yourself than you ever did, but for some reason you believe it has something to do with you

Here are some things that are normal: 

  • someone makes you smile more than you frown
  • a person who allows you to voice your opinion, & even lets you make decisions from time-to-time (GASP!) 
  • you’re treated as a valid human being with a mind, body, & soul
  • a person who respects your boundaries & wishes
  • someone who asks more than just “hi, how are YA?”
  • you don’t have to hide what goes on behind closed doors whe the doors are open

There are obviously more things that fall under each category…but this is a super simple list to go through if you ever question a relationship you have with another human being. Cats are another story….they’re assholes & don’t respect human boundaries. 

Anyways, I hope yall are having a great week! No matter what your situation is, there’s always someone who is willing to listen to & help you- trust me.  

Stay happy 🙂

~peace & all good~

How Yoga Has Helped Me Fail

Yoga is a very complicated subject… I feel like it’s viewed as either something extremely boring, extremely spiritual, or extremely foreign. Maybe even all of the above. Maybe none of the above. 

What I do know, is that my yoga practice has helped me become more comfortable with my never-ending thoughts & my imperfect self. I’ve only been practicing consistently for about a year…but you’d be surprised what such a short amount of time can do! 

Flexibility has always been somewhat of a strong point for me.. I’m relatively strong (physically).. My balance is decent.. Yoga for me isn’t about these things that we typically associate with it. I’m not overly concerned with how on point my poses are, or how twisty I can get, or how long I can stand on my head (although being upside down is my favourite place to be). 

Clearly I’m not all about how perfect my poses are…

   Handstand? Nope. 
   Hips & shoulders aligned? Try again.. 

*the following image may cause you to laugh your abs on*

   My favorite fail ever captured on camera. I was trying to do a tripod headstand & fell as soon as the timer went off. Crying..I hope you are too lol.

For me, I’m more interested in how taking time to appreciate myself can improve how I deal with things. I enjoy the time my practice gives me to sit with my thoughts & acknowledge my mind. 

I like that I can just breath & observe the way my body & mind react to things I do. 

I like that I can fail a bunch of times & find it funny (also slightly frustrating…but more funny). 

I can use my body to give my mind what it needs at a given time. 

And just to re-iterate how hilarious/normal/OK it is to fail & get things wrong:  

  HAHA nope, not even close to correct. 
  Still funny.. & still not correct!!

So I hope this at least gave you a laugh, & maybe even gave you a new view on yoga. Do what you need & forget the rest! 

HAPPY FRIDAY

Rejoice, celebrate, run around in your underwear! 😀 

We have all made it through the majority of the week.. Congratulations. Now get out there & do something you enjoy! 

How to have a successful weekend: 

  • wake up.. notice that it is not Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, or Thursday
  • smile
  • don’t set an alarm (or do, idk you)
  • if youre putting a long work week behind you, take time to blow off some steam (in a safe, productive way of course)
  • keep up your weekly routines to a certain degree- that way Monday won’t be so rude

Basically, I think the weekends are a great opportunity to reset & let go of any stress that has built up. It’s also not a bad idea to do this throughout the week/each day, but we can be way more attentive to ourselves when we don’t have other work to tend to. 

Just wanted to drop by with a reminder to relax. Take time for yourself. Do things you enjoy & that make you feel human. Have dessert (or an extra slice of pizza). TREAT YOSELF 😉

~peace & all good~